Sometimes, life takes you on a crazy journey.
And then tosses you out of the car.
That's kind of how I've been feeling lately. A little lost, a little crazy and way too busy.
So, let's play catch up on where I'm at right now:
Work
After having 4 staff leave in January, leaving me 2 staff, plus myself, to work w/ around 100 kiddos...let's just say the stress of that time left me in tears almost every night. My poor hubby...God bless him for learning to deal w/ the stress and love me that much more. It meant late nights at work, and early mornings too. It meant lots of chocolate, coffee and goodies for my staff because we were just trying to hang on, with no help on the way.
Now, almost 2 1/3 months later, we can honestly say we have survived it. And I'm only down 1 staff now, instead of 4. And I, overall, love each of them for their unique ways. (One of them has a shoe collection...yes...we tease HIM a lot...lol...him and his Nike's...) They've had to put up with a lot, but learn that much more quickly. They've had to deal w/ so much, and I am thankful for each of them, and how they've ALL been willing to help take the load off of me when I finally opened up to just how stressed I was, and what it had been doing to me internally.
Health
Not so good, to be honest. It's been...a very long ride. Due to some complications w/ the meds I was first put on, and their side effects, we've had to once again get off the meds and try to control the issues homeopathically. This has led to a lot of research, study, etc. And frantically trying to find items the cheapest yet best possible (it's expensive!!!). My weight has ballooned, and I am now heavier than when I first started this journey. And it's been frustrating... It doesn't help that I've pretty much been swollen for over a week now, and can't seem to get the swelling to leave...thus, the FB post on anti-inflammatory herbs and such. Once again trying to find a homeopathic remedy that will fit and work with my body.
Yesterday, there was a meltdown on the way to drop Eric off to work. I...couldn't deal w/ everything going on anymore. I was just so frustrated, so broken, and so heartsick at feeling like everything was crashing down and all of the hard work was seemingly for nothing.
So, we had a heart talk last night, and came up with a game plan that involves the both of us. I'm going back to the Daniel Fast/mostly vegetarian way I ate. Partly for spiritual reasons, but also because my body does so much better on a vegetarian lifestyle than it does w/ the meats I've been incorporating due to the much-needed protein I was told I needed. (Unfortunately, this is why I think the swollen hasn't gone down, and has only gotten worse...) I'm excited, though I know my body is going to go under a serious detox that is going to leave me cranky and feeling like crap for awhile. But I know in the long-run that it's what's needed to hopefully realign my body into where I need it to be. Especially as I need to schedule another blood lab work to be done...which will determine if I need to be placed on insulin...
Eric and I also came up with a workout that we can do together at home. Neither of us have money for a gym right now, and the idea of walking in the dark, in places I don't really know, makes both of us feel quite uncomfortable with that idea. So, home workouts it is until God provides another way. I'm praying for some weights right now, since we don't have any. : D
Spiritual
BSF...lots of homework...so little time sometimes! lol But it's been good, and I've been learning a lot. That's probably all I'll say right now.
Anywho...this is a bit where I am right now. On the journey, refusing to give up, even though everything in me is crying to throw in the towel.
I can't. I won't. He has shown me that I'm stronger than even what I think I am. So, it's time to lean on His strength, His wisdom, and get through this, one footstep at a time.
Until next time...
And then tosses you out of the car.
That's kind of how I've been feeling lately. A little lost, a little crazy and way too busy.
So, let's play catch up on where I'm at right now:
Work
After having 4 staff leave in January, leaving me 2 staff, plus myself, to work w/ around 100 kiddos...let's just say the stress of that time left me in tears almost every night. My poor hubby...God bless him for learning to deal w/ the stress and love me that much more. It meant late nights at work, and early mornings too. It meant lots of chocolate, coffee and goodies for my staff because we were just trying to hang on, with no help on the way.
Now, almost 2 1/3 months later, we can honestly say we have survived it. And I'm only down 1 staff now, instead of 4. And I, overall, love each of them for their unique ways. (One of them has a shoe collection...yes...we tease HIM a lot...lol...him and his Nike's...) They've had to put up with a lot, but learn that much more quickly. They've had to deal w/ so much, and I am thankful for each of them, and how they've ALL been willing to help take the load off of me when I finally opened up to just how stressed I was, and what it had been doing to me internally.
Health
Not so good, to be honest. It's been...a very long ride. Due to some complications w/ the meds I was first put on, and their side effects, we've had to once again get off the meds and try to control the issues homeopathically. This has led to a lot of research, study, etc. And frantically trying to find items the cheapest yet best possible (it's expensive!!!). My weight has ballooned, and I am now heavier than when I first started this journey. And it's been frustrating... It doesn't help that I've pretty much been swollen for over a week now, and can't seem to get the swelling to leave...thus, the FB post on anti-inflammatory herbs and such. Once again trying to find a homeopathic remedy that will fit and work with my body.
Yesterday, there was a meltdown on the way to drop Eric off to work. I...couldn't deal w/ everything going on anymore. I was just so frustrated, so broken, and so heartsick at feeling like everything was crashing down and all of the hard work was seemingly for nothing.
So, we had a heart talk last night, and came up with a game plan that involves the both of us. I'm going back to the Daniel Fast/mostly vegetarian way I ate. Partly for spiritual reasons, but also because my body does so much better on a vegetarian lifestyle than it does w/ the meats I've been incorporating due to the much-needed protein I was told I needed. (Unfortunately, this is why I think the swollen hasn't gone down, and has only gotten worse...) I'm excited, though I know my body is going to go under a serious detox that is going to leave me cranky and feeling like crap for awhile. But I know in the long-run that it's what's needed to hopefully realign my body into where I need it to be. Especially as I need to schedule another blood lab work to be done...which will determine if I need to be placed on insulin...
Eric and I also came up with a workout that we can do together at home. Neither of us have money for a gym right now, and the idea of walking in the dark, in places I don't really know, makes both of us feel quite uncomfortable with that idea. So, home workouts it is until God provides another way. I'm praying for some weights right now, since we don't have any. : D
Spiritual
BSF...lots of homework...so little time sometimes! lol But it's been good, and I've been learning a lot. That's probably all I'll say right now.
Anywho...this is a bit where I am right now. On the journey, refusing to give up, even though everything in me is crying to throw in the towel.
I can't. I won't. He has shown me that I'm stronger than even what I think I am. So, it's time to lean on His strength, His wisdom, and get through this, one footstep at a time.
Until next time...
