So it's been a few months since I've written anything. I have no idea why. Maybe because life has changed drastically for me, & all for the better.
Let's recap, shall we? June met my husband, July got engaged. August got married & moved. And opened up a new program with my job. And saw the most busiest and hectic school yr of my wking life.
Not only that, but wked the entire summer with no break, including a rm that no one wanted to be in. But one that I loved. (They'll always be my babies no matter how big they get or how bad they behave.)
So. Yeah. Life has been crazy hectic. Not to mention having to deal with the numerous rumors & gossip of the whole reason why I got married. *insert eye roll* So, bear with me as I clear up some things and answer others today.
1. No, I am not pregnant nor was I ever pregnant, resulting in why I got married. If you thought that before, shame on you for not knowing me as well as you thought.
2. The reason I kept quiet: okay peeps. By definition, the nature of an elopement is quietness. For once in my adult life, I wanted to keep certain things to myself. It was quite lovely to be able to have time to adjust and to not have the whole world know my business. If that offends you, I am sorry. But after talking with the hubby, I realize I shouldn't have to apologize for that. This decision was made between he and I, as we are the ones sharing covenant together, & it was fully made with his backing & knowledge. Now with that being said, the quietness was more for my sanity than anything else. Eric & I took that time to just...be. Something that we both are immensely glad for right now.
3. Why I've been so quiet lately... It isn't because I don't want to hang. I do. I just don't have the time, energy or capacity to right now. This is where I have had to draw a line. I am choosing to invest in my marriage and my husband. For all my married friends, I sincerely owe you an apology. I had no idea how hard it is/was to juggle friendship maintenance and married life demands. And I judged you all on how you kinda threw me under the bus, per se, when you got married. I never said anything, but I am soooo sorry. It's hard trying to do all of 'this', & I have much to learn from those who have found a good balance. Teach me please!!!!
4. For those that have stuck by me, thank you. So much has been happening in my personal life. & I thank you for listening to me, & praying with me. And for pouring in to me. You have no idea how much that has lifted my spirit and helped during the drama of the month. Thank you!
Now, I hope you didn't think that I'd end it just there. The one thing that I can say without a doubt is that my Abba is good, & He is faithful. As I'm learning to surrender and lay down my life for this ministry called marriage, I can tell you so much I have already learned, both from the Mama & from my husband. (Thanks Lynn for coffee dates!) I am always astounded at my husband's love for me, & his willingness to sacrifice and speak into not just me, but the people and kids I work with. What an amazing blessing I was given the day I said 'I do'. (& yes, honey, that includes the puns in the middle of Wal-Mart.)
So, in closing, know that each day has been ones of battles fought, victories earned, & humbling myself to learn from some of the most amazing people around me. It has been an honor and a privilege to walk with some of you. And to know that the best is yet to come!!! :)
Until next time, my friends. :)
Oh. Expect an e-vite & fb msg soon from me on a celebration party in December! : D
