I think it all started last Thursday when this lady started praying over my kiddos...and I immediately was like, "uh, no, I don't receive that for them. Why are you praying that they're sick and yada yada yada and...lady, STOP PRAYING!!!"
But me, I didn't want to be rude.
Maybe I should have.
Because the change in their behavior has been astronomically different. They went from being amazing to being, well, the opposite.
I've had kids in my office ON A DAILY BASIS!!! I haven't had that since we first got the program up and running. It's been an amazing month of greatness.
And one person's prayer about how they're all wild, and they're so glad I'm there, and how there's so much unruliness and...
Lady, what in the world makes you think it's okay to pray the bad over people?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah, I'm angry. I'm angry that I have to once again go back and take the ground back. Ground it took 6 LONG MONTHS to gain w/ these kiddos.
And I knew once those words came out of her mouth...just...grrrrrr.
So, now, I'm standing on the ground goin', "enemy, you're not taking my kiddos back! you're not taking the peace and unity back! you're not stealing our joy!"
It's been difficult though. From staff to children, it's been so amazingly difficult.
So my prayer, and if those who read this would stand w/ me...
He'll give me the game plan to gain back the ground, and exactly how to combat the curses spoken over my children
He'll help me to see this person through His eyes, not mine of anger and hurt
He'll give me the grace and patience to deal w/ these issues in a loving manner, not one where I'd like to duck tape 'em to the wall...myself included...just for a moment of peace in my day
And above all, that He'll show me how to walk in love, not frustration, with those within our program, from boss to children and everyone else we encounter on a daily basis.
Needless to say, every night I've come home, ate, waited for food to go down, and then crashed for 8-10 hours. If you know me, I don't normally sleep that long. Think 6 hours unless I'm super tired or sick. I've been super tired and exhausted.
I think my biggest frustration is that the person thought it was okay to say, "so many kids are sick, mental illness, misbehaviors, diagnosed w/ this and that and this and..." and then look at me and start proclaiming all of those things at my kiddos. Behavior issues, diagnoses, illnesses..."Lord, teach her to be a light to these kids in her program who have all of these, because I know in today's society every child has something wrong with them"
WTF man?!?!?!??!?!?! Yes, I cussed. I know. It just gets me so angry!!!
Instead of seeing the wrong in them, maybe it's time to see the right. The goodness. What they do that's amazing and brilliant and strong!
The difference between me and others in my position...no matter their behavior, I see what they're capable of. I see their strengths, their awesomeness, their heart to be loved and known and appreciated for being who they are, not who others tell them to be. And when I talk to my kids, the minute I tell them, "_____, I'm disappointed in that choice you made. I KNOW you can do better! I KNOW you are amazing, unique, smart, __________________ (fill in the blanks). I KNOW that between you and I, we can work on this. Let me help you! How can we work on this so that if this comes up again, we can do better?" And that door is opened for them to believe that I love them, care about them, and want only the best for them. (I've had grown middle schoolers and high schoolers cry when I start pouring into them like this.)
They see that my heart isn't to be down, degrading or angry at them. But instead I want to instill just how amazing they are, mistakes and all. I want them to see WHO they are, but also WHOSE they are. I don't want them to leave my office without a change in their heart.
So, lady, instead of cursing today's generation of kids coming up...
Maybe it's time you start speaking life into them.
I don't want your curses.
I don't want your views.
Keep 'em to yourself.
If you're not gonna speak life over this generation, all I gotta say is move outta the way. As harsh as this may sound, I don't need your view points of what's wrong with this generation. I instead want a view point that this generation CAN grow up to be amazing, righteous, strong, and walking in faith. So, if you don't have anything encouraging to add to that...it would be best you didn't talk to me.
Thanks,
disgruntled teacher/administrator/person who works w/ this generation
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