Today has probably been the worst day of meltdown I've ever had.
Today has been the most stressful, hectic, awfullest day ever.
Today has been...
...unexpectedly filled w/ some serious blessings. Despite everything. Despite the drama, the craziness, the insaneness.
I sat here after work, and just began to veg out, praying, trying to find up from down, left from right. And just more and more praying. Put on some dance music, and then just prayed some more. Yeah, lots of praying, I know.
And then I just started letting everything out to Him. About the day, the situation, the issues, the wanting to just scream w/ frustration at how things are going down right now, at lost things...
And then, as I sat here, I got an unexpected message. From a guy. One that I'm slowly getting to know better as we talk here and there. And I must admit...it made my day. Not because it was anything unique, but because it was just really nice to hold a conversation and just let the joy begin to bubble out as I talked about likes, hobbies, Jesus, you know. :) lol And then a friend just praying over me as I poured everything out. Even some tears. And lots of frustrations.
I have come to the realization that once I talk, and let things out, everything in my world begins to right itself. Or more like, my perspective and truths begin to align once again w/ the Word. But it takes me talking it out, and realizing, wait a minute, this doesn't align w/ the Word, to begin to understand just what needs to be done.
And sometimes, it takes prompting from someone who won't let me hide. Which is what I was kinda doing once I got home. I stayed in my room and just...vegged...and read. And talked. And danced. And prayed. (Sorry for not answering the phone, MC. Kinda put the phone on ignore for a bit while I sat and vegged out.)
All that to say, though the situation(s) aren't resolved...I'm at a nice, peaceful state. Knowing that the truth will come out and stand strong in these situations.
So, thanks friends. And Jesus. Who knew a little country and dance music, plus a lot of praying, would make me understand how I handle seriously intense emotions?! haha :) And that I wasn't made to hide things in the dark, especially my emotions. Not built that way. And that I learn a lot about myself, about people, and about Jesus when I stop, take a moment to reflect on things, talk it out, then have the "ah-ha" moment where I'm like, "Jesus, You got this. Why am I so stressed/frustrated/concerned/worried/anxious? Who better to deal w/ all of this than You??"
And then the joy gets restored. And all is right with the world again. 'Cause joy and Jesus are in the same sentence in my heart and head after that. :) haha
Today has been the most stressful, hectic, awfullest day ever.
Today has been...
...unexpectedly filled w/ some serious blessings. Despite everything. Despite the drama, the craziness, the insaneness.
I sat here after work, and just began to veg out, praying, trying to find up from down, left from right. And just more and more praying. Put on some dance music, and then just prayed some more. Yeah, lots of praying, I know.
And then I just started letting everything out to Him. About the day, the situation, the issues, the wanting to just scream w/ frustration at how things are going down right now, at lost things...
And then, as I sat here, I got an unexpected message. From a guy. One that I'm slowly getting to know better as we talk here and there. And I must admit...it made my day. Not because it was anything unique, but because it was just really nice to hold a conversation and just let the joy begin to bubble out as I talked about likes, hobbies, Jesus, you know. :) lol And then a friend just praying over me as I poured everything out. Even some tears. And lots of frustrations.
I have come to the realization that once I talk, and let things out, everything in my world begins to right itself. Or more like, my perspective and truths begin to align once again w/ the Word. But it takes me talking it out, and realizing, wait a minute, this doesn't align w/ the Word, to begin to understand just what needs to be done.
And sometimes, it takes prompting from someone who won't let me hide. Which is what I was kinda doing once I got home. I stayed in my room and just...vegged...and read. And talked. And danced. And prayed. (Sorry for not answering the phone, MC. Kinda put the phone on ignore for a bit while I sat and vegged out.)
All that to say, though the situation(s) aren't resolved...I'm at a nice, peaceful state. Knowing that the truth will come out and stand strong in these situations.
So, thanks friends. And Jesus. Who knew a little country and dance music, plus a lot of praying, would make me understand how I handle seriously intense emotions?! haha :) And that I wasn't made to hide things in the dark, especially my emotions. Not built that way. And that I learn a lot about myself, about people, and about Jesus when I stop, take a moment to reflect on things, talk it out, then have the "ah-ha" moment where I'm like, "Jesus, You got this. Why am I so stressed/frustrated/concerned/worried/anxious? Who better to deal w/ all of this than You??"
And then the joy gets restored. And all is right with the world again. 'Cause joy and Jesus are in the same sentence in my heart and head after that. :) haha
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