My Walk

So, it's been an interesting summer, and the start of the school year has been EXTREMELY hectic and stressful...starting up a new program is a lot harder than I anticipated, and realizing how much I need Him to go before me in my day.

Not only that, but learning how to rely on Him for EVERY need...hasn't been easy, and sometimes I have a hard time taking my own advice...and, well, trying to figure out how to do life in general...tough.

But, while listening to Pandora and reading, heard this song, and had to find the lyrics...because one thing that I've learned this summer, is that even when it feels like I can't go on, there's too much stress, bills are due, the impossible isn't possible...or, when I complain, worry, am anxious, or just lay out my heart to a friend just to get it off my chest...even then, I choose to praise Him.  Even when it's the hardest to do, when all I want to do is cry (which I usually do) or scream (which is more what I do in the car, driving down the highway where no one can hear me), or laugh hysterically (which apparently comes out more when I have late night quiet times)...even then, I'm learning to praise Him through EVERYTHING, every motion, every season, the good, the bad, the ugly...

And I thank Him.  I thank Him that this summer was the summer I DID NOT accept the spirit of poverty, but instead accepted His word that the rain would come.  I thank Him that I learned just how much I'm loved here in my little corner of the world.  I thank Him that I've begun to learn what spiritual family looks like...and that it's not something I have to work for, earn, or try to get them to love me...but that I am loved for me, being me. :)

I thank Him that I am altogether lovely, beautiful and wonderful.  And that I am learning, one step at a time, just who I am in Him, and who He is in me.  And that I'm growing to be a most beautiful and wonderful woman of God.

And that soon, very soon, something wonderful is gonna happen... :)

Til then, my friends!

Lyrics to My Walk: (which I cut and paste...typos are NOT mine haha)

No time for games that's how I'm liven {liven} hey
Using every gift that I'm given {given} hey
Just the thought of your name is bone chilling
So appealing my soul kinda got a warm feeling
Sense I was a little boy I knew your name
All of my family they said the same
They called you by your name shorty you know King, Messiah,
and all those big names she told me that life was gone cause pain {pain},
so just get on your face and call out his name
See I can't lie I love the world man {world man},
but I just feel like it time for a change hey hey

See
My walk ain't yo walk
My talk ain't yo talk
My slang ain't yo slang
But it's all the same
My bills aint yo bills
My deals ain't yo deals
But still we gotta praise him

My problems ain't yo problems whoa whoa
But I know that he can solve them whoa whoa
Jesus is who I call on whoa whoa
So guess what we gotta praise him

My gas bill due, My light due, verizon bill due
Man ya'll know how the do {cut you off} forget about what they due
See I'm gone stay focus on what he do.
Well I thank you for the phone that I talk on {talk on}
Thank you for the legs that I walk on {walk on}
Thank you the place that I call home
And that's enough to get my praise on cause

See
My walk ain't yo walk
My talk ain't yo talk
My slang ain't yo slang
But it's all the same
My bills aint yo bills
My deals ain't yo deals
But still we gotta praise him

My problems ain't yo problems whoa whoa
But I know that he can solve them whoa whoa
Jesus is who I call on whoa whoa
So guess what we gotta praise him

I I gotta praise I gotta praise gotta praise gotta praise I gotta praise
That's if you love him hey
That's if you need him hey
Open you heart hey and just receive him hey

I I gotta praise I gotta praise gotta praise gotta praise I gotta praise
That's if you love him hey
That's if you need him hey
Open you heart hey and just receive him hey

My walk ain't yo walk
My talk ain't yo talk
My slang ain't yo slang
But it's all the same
My bills aint yo bills
My deals ain't yo deals
But still we gotta praise him

My problems ain't yo problems whoa whoa
But I know that he can solve them whoa whoa
Jesus is who I call on whoa whoa
So guess what we gotta praise him