Blegh

I know...weird, coming from me, right?

But I have to admit...the past couple of days have been rough.  Why?  I'm not too sure.  Sometimes intense battle.  Sometimes being in my head too much.  Sometimes worry and anxiety.

Today was one of those days...still is, to be honest.  And trying very hard to battle, despite my feelings.  And admittedly, I'd love to just run away, hide away, not be anywhere near anyone for awhile, but pretty sure God won't let me do that. *sigh*

Who knows?  I guess all I really wanted to do is just word vomit here for a bit.  Let everything out.  Frustration, sadness, anger, doldrums...

Methinks that it will be time very soon to spend one-on-one away from people and technology, from demands, from the world.  At times I feel horrendously guilty doing this, but I know that if I don't...well, I'll allow myself to become overused, which doesn't help anyone at all.

So all that to say...I'm looking forward to house-sitting again.  And being away for awhile.  Mayhaps even forget to turn on my cell phone for a day...or 3.  And to just allow myself to sit, read, study, ponder, meditate and listen.

When all else fails, and I draw myself away to the mountain, this, like nothing else, works. Oh Lord Jesus, may Sunday night come soon enough to be drawn away with You.