So, today was an incredibly amazing day. Why? Not because something spectacular happened (because it didn't). Not because of a special occasion (other than Papa T's bday, which of course is special!). But because I got to just...do fun stuff. :) I mean, I do fun stuff frequently. But today, I went DRESS shopping. Yes, that's right. Dress shopping.
If you know me well, you kinda know what a big deal this is for me. I maybe buy one dress. Once a year. Usually around my birthday so I can have an excuse to dress up. (Probably one of the only, rarest of times, I dress up completely, make-up, hair and all.) Not only did I buy a dress, but it was in a lower size (yippee for workouts!) than previously owned/bought dresses. :) And it has a belt. (which are my least favorite things in the world)
That being said, I even BOUGHT JEWELRY. Yes. That's right. AND my little earrings (clip-on since I can't actually wear earrings...)
AND I busted out the 4 inch heels. (I know...everyone should be gasping by now. haha)
That being said...I paraded around the house in my heels. Why? Uh, 'cause those things are miserably uncomfortable, and I hate wearing heels, and I wanted to practice on 'em. (I know...I'm such a nerd. But you all love me anyway!)
Anywho...I just felt like dressing up for tomorrow evening. So, I'm gonna do it. I am even going to try out a new hairdo.
Which got me to thinking. 'Cause I had forgotten about this...
Now, officially, 1 more day before June 12th. It's a little weird, thinking about it. Was talking to the roomie...it's just...weird. I mean, that means that I'm free to have romance in the life, if He brings it that way.
Just...weird! haha Not in a bad way, but more like...that hasn't really been what I've been dwelling on for the past year. I've been focused on healing, freedom, deliverance...sitting before Him, learning His heart, His likes, dislikes...understanding Him as a lover, a friend, my husband, my all in all.
And dressing up, well, playing practice dress-up, reminded me of how much I want to please Him so. As I was walking, practicing the hairdo, etc., all I kept hearing was that He said I'm beautiful. :) Which made me giddy like a school girl! haha And that the outward is showing what's going on in the inward parts. Freedom. Healing. Deliverance.
Little by little, the pieces of the things that have tied me down, burdened, placed so much heaviness and strife...are falling away. It doesn't mean life is easier. It just means that I'm understanding how to walk in freedom.
Some days are better than others. But I'm learning how to battle. How to fight. How to become the woman who He has created, and loved on. I'm learning that what others see in me, isn't just them being nice, but is the truth. The lies are falling away, and the truth is becoming unveiled, piece by piece.
And the great thing is...all I want to do now is dance, and jump, and laugh, and play, and rejoice, and run free.
Which is probably why I've been dancing so much lately. Even in the car. (I get the most oddest looks sometimes...even had a guy staring at me from his rearview mirror...which I just waved to him, actually.) It's been SOOOOO amazing to be free. Truly free. The puzzle pieces have been coming together. There's no confusion. So strife.
There's just a learning how, step by step, to walk out this freedom. And a daily reminder to not pick up what was left behind, flung off, and thrown aside.
With that being said, 1 more day. But a lifetime of loving my Abba, my Lord, my Husband, the Lover of me. :) Can't wait!!!!!! :)
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