Woke up this morning. Laid in bed for awhile. Sat, prayed. Got up. Read a bit. Then came down, watered the garden, talked to the plants, spoke that they live and not die on me...played with the dogs.
Then, came inside, and had this GREAT idea. Let's put on GodTV, cook breakfast, eat, and soak in His presence all at the same time. Did great, actually. Until I was done eating. Then the worship leader began playing "happy happy joy joy happy happy joy joy" for 10 plus minutes straigtht. At which point I just gave up and started dancing and laughing in the Lord. (I only dance when no one can see. lol)
So much joy. And one thing that is being spoken over..."stop trying to be who's who, but instead be you, you. He loves me like I am. He loves me like I am..." and the worship leader's speaking about how so many times we want to be in the who's who in the Christian world, be the next Benny Hinn, the next "big thing", the next great worship leader, Hillsong, song writer, whatever. And we don't allow ourselves to be who WE are, but instead who we think we SHOULD be...trying to impress others, impress people, impress ministries, ministers...
So this morning, I told the Lord, as Rick Pino was singing this song...I told the Lord that I want to be who HE has made me to be. He loves my style, my taste of clothes, He loves my hair, He loves my personality...NOT my sin!! I want to worship in truth, so I want to come to the Lord with EVERYTHING I am...to pour out my guts to the Lord, even the silliness that's me, the seriousness, my personality, my quirks. HE LOVES MY SENSE OF HUMOR!! haha I want to set people free...and the only way I can do that is to minister to them in TRUTH because it's the truth that sets people free. And that means allowing myself to be transparent, who I am, who He's made me to be.
And I realized that the Lord has been breaking off some serious strongholds in my life in that arena...without me knowing/realizing that those strongholds are being broken. It's been utterly amazing. To walk in a place and say, Lord, I want to be me. Not who people expect me to be. But I want to be ME, and who YOU'VE made me to be.
Yeah, I realize this is a lot of "word vomit".
So, yeah. Lots of stuff. And the really cool part...is that as I was dancing around, jumping, skipping...the dogs started barking and looking around them, going nuts. And I got to see some really cool stuff. :)
Hope, my dear reader(s), that this encourages you to be who you are in Him, not who others think you should be, but instead, who He has created you to be. :)
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